I can't remember how many times I had both of my feet on the gas pedal and the brake pedal at the same time. I am going nowhere!! I wanted so badly to release the breaks, but I was so scared to do it. Today I release and let go, and I let a higher power take care of the problem. And before letting go and let 'God,' I also took action: I did everything I could to make my situation better and then gave my problems to the 'Universe' and waited to see what would happen. Almost always, things happened for my highest good. Getting out of my comfort zone, taking action and getting out of my way are some of the best strategies to move forward and create flow in life.
Yesterday I made a huge mistake and watched the news! How horrific I felt afterward! So much fear and I could only hear death and strain and more death! Wow. I don't watch the news, which keeps my energy aligned and gives me peace of mind. Fear should not be a channel to connect with others; it only creates prickly vibes. I wear a mask, keep a distance and stay home as much as I can. And I read the news from different countries. Some countries have a less fear-based approach to the news, which I prefer.
I redecorated my living room on Sunday, making me feel like I am in a different place! I can look out the window now, with a coffee or hot chocolate and be. I am sitting in stillness and I am listening to the outside while watching the lake. I can see Osprey's running for their prey and I see how much ice there is on the lake right now. So beautiful! Nature is my healing and my church. Try it out :)
Every morning is a new day. A new start in our lives with failures and successes from the past neatly packaged in our backpack. This day is new and fresh and there will never be exactly like this day again. The canvas is blank, where we can paint any pictures we desire.
Think of yourself as a painter or artist presented with a multitude of choices, feelings, and possibilities represented by colours and brushes that you pick from your palette. Some are light and clear others are colourful pastels. There are also dark and dingy colours in there. You can choose any colour you want with any size of a brush! You may create bold and brave strokes with your brush using bright colours today or focus on the darker, more gloomy colours. Whatever you do, you made a choice of what colours to use and what design to create. You are a creator and you choose how to experience your day - every day. You bring joy or sorrow into your life by the choices you make. Change the brush and pick another colour if you don’t like what you are creating. See yourself changing the brush and colour to something brighter and more joyful in your mind's eye. The power is in your hands.
Are you feeling stuck? I am. I have had a creative block over three weeks now. It sucks. But I have decided to let that go. Creativity is a dance of receiving and giving. I receive inspiration, which I then use and give to be creative and paint. But I have to be reminded to let go of feeling stuck. I have to shrug off the feeling of being stuck because sitting in this stuckness, I will not give to my creative projects. I am stuck in self-doubt because I have not created anything substantial that I would like to keep. I let go of my fears to create; I let go of self-doubt and having to be perfect. I invite creative boldness to continue my journey as an artist. Exploring is one of the best soul-filled activities I can use on the canvas. I have to choose to explore and be bold, and sometimes I have to paint without inspiration. But first, I invite my muse to support me in my insecurities, and the rest is up in the air. Onwards.
If our hearts are small, the tiniest mistakes and shortcomings of those around us can infuriate us. We lose patience, we put our rigid blinders on and forget to look at the bigger picture. If we expand our hearts, however, we become capable of treating others with compassion and empathy. A good reminder to continue working on growing your heart! The world needs more kindness and compassion, and we have to put in the work to become heart-centered. What you give will most definitely come back-good or bad.
Patience, persistence, and perspiration make an unbeatable combination for success.-Napoleon Hill
"What you have to remember is that a lot of success (Weather in business or in life) is a persistence game. It's not a talent game. It's not a luck game. It's a persistence game. The person who is willing to be there the longest, fight the hardest, and be the last man or woman standing is the one who arrives at the destination. This person gets to the finish line, not because he or she is any better than other entrepreneurs but because this person stayed the course and refused to give up. When this person said "I commit", she actually meant it. " -K.B.
Nearly every kind of feedback – even if I agreed with it or not – has been a massive tool for me and my growth. I remember when I was working in a treatment center as a counsellor where we received feedback daily. I was in fear every day; however, this experience made me super humble and strong. I will never forget this experience, and I am thankful for it. The more we can understand feedback with an open mind, the more we’ll develop. When you learn to process feedback effectively, there will be no limit to your personal development.
Ask for feedback. Ask your friends that you can be vulnerable with to give you feedback. And remember to put yourself in their shoes as it can be very, very hard to provide feedback. Consider their perspective and how their role or relationship with you might be affecting what they say, and how you feel about it. Finally, remember that you don’t have to re-evaluate your entire life because of one person’s feedback in one area of your life.
21 Self-esteem tidbits! A good list to review in 2021.
I call myself a recovered people pleaser. I am a master of reading energies in a room and making people feel comfortable, all of which is extremely exhausting. I am not doing this anymore as it would lead to burn out city rather quickly. The road to recovery has been very long but so worth the investment while figuring out how to build confidence and finding strength in myself. I can fully rely on and trust myself due to my self-awareness, investing in personal development and a four year education/degree of dealing with family history lol.
I have accumulated tons of experiences and training but the list I will present will be a doable list that you can use yourself without signing up for expensive workshops or training:
1. Read the Tibetan Book of Living and Dying. Life is about suffering and how to deal and cope with it will set you free
2. Walk in nature
3. Helping others, volunteering
4. Sitting with your grief and pain to find the real problem, go deeper
5. Conflict resolution, don't be afraid to open your heart today and state what you need
6. Stop worrying about what other people think about you, they are preoccupied on what they think you are thinking about them. Please unfreeze and thaw
7. Constantly seek feedback and ask for feedback from others. It may hurt but it is the best shortcut to growth which will lead to immediate success if you apply it
8. Apply yourself. Do what you got to do as soon as you can
9. Eat the biggest frog in the morning-deal with the heaviest problem asap
10. Sometimes you just have to put it out there. See what happens and move on
11. Treat yourself to an amazing cup of coffee or tea
12. Tell somebody you love them today. If they aren't open to hear it please do not explain or back paddle why you shared it. Just say you needed to tell them and discard any insecurities
13. Sweat equity, know thyself. Won't be easy but worth all the time in the world. Will save your tons of pain
14. Don't take shortcuts...ever
15. Read and learn all about what puts your soul on fire and then share it with others!
16. Don't buy into what other people are telling you if it isn't constructive feedback. Haters will always hate
17. Treat your heart with tender care. Always. No room for negotiation as you are doing your best to get where you want to be
18. Be honest with yourself and ask for help. You don't need to know everything
19. Read Living in the Light with Shakti Gawain. One of my first spiritual books I found in 1997. Such a yellow and vibrant cover and message!
20. Let go of old thoughts and habits. At least replace negative thoughts with something more effective than sitting in misery
21. Jumping jacks works and the best energy changer ever!
So these are my musings in the dark, rather unknown conditions at the end of 2020. There is a pendulum in life, it swings back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. You have to experience both sides of the pendulum to find the middle. If you are a comedian, you have an intense, funny streak and you may have a dark, depressive side. So there goes the pendulum back and forth to two extreme feelings. Very funny and very dark. I think it is part of human behaviour to have two sides and you are never sure which side will win each day. The middle is neutral, the NOW. We all have this pendulum but we may never understand both sides if we aren't aware. If we have that self-awareness/curiosity of self, we can deal with the extreme sides to find the NOW/middle way.
In life, when feeling sad, I go deep, very deep and I sit with my feelings and let my eyes be filled with tears..I cry..I don't try to avoid my feelings; it's so cleansing sitting with those tears for all kinds of reasons. After the tears, I will be filled with endless joy and enthusiasm. And so it goes. I cleanse and then filled with joy. It is a constant balance in living life. If I tried to avoid my sadness, I wouldn't have so much fun and a childlike attitude about life. It's worth it..
My name is Annica Johansson and I am an Intuitive Healer and Artist. I am writing about personal development, daily musings, spirituality and depicting mother nature's amazing beauty. Welcome!